Holy swollen feet, Batman

I was on my feet for 6 hrs doing an event on Saturday. Man, my feet were killing me. When I got home and kicked off my shoes, I discovered these sausages.

Pardon the lack of pedicure, mmm kay?

Attack of the GIANT, dark nipples

It's not a pretty sight. DH is less than impressed.

So last week

I got to see our tiger again, or shall I say tigeress. That's the female version, right? Although I have horrid m/s and no weight gain, our lil one is measuring on the big side. She was 12 oz at the u/s and we caught her relieving herself as she posed. That's my girl!

My Friday appt got rescheduled until today, which I'm now back from. Apparently, my Dr has now left the practice (the 2nd of a team of 3 to leave) leaving me with my gyno who will now be my OB. I lurve her so it's no biggie, I was just pissed that they decided to tell me this little tidbit until after I was already there on Friday, thereby pushing my appt back until today.

I got my vag checked out as it's been giving me some issues and all is well. Thank goodness!

I got measured today! It was my first measurement of the tum tum and was exciting. I'm a dork, I know. Measuring right on track. Still down in weight a total of 3 lbs, so I've put some of my weight back on, but technically still under pre-pg weight. The nurse seems to think I'll gain those lbs after the holidays since my next appt isn't until January. I believe she's correct since I have serious cravings for some Turkey Day fixings! I asked this Dr if she was concerned with my weight and since the u/s measured the bebe on the bigger size and the bellah looks good, she said she thinks I'll be one of the lucky ones leaving the hospital in a leather mini-skirt and stilletos. That all my weight is restructurizing and post-partum will be simply marvelous. One can only hope, right?

Anyway, ta-ta for now! I promise to post more!

My vag is pissed

I'll spare you details, but it's currently under the weather. Just thought you should know! I'll find out more at my appt tomorrow.

HOLY SHIT!!!!

I'm going to have a child. I'm going to have a daughter. I'm going to be a mother. I'M PREGNANT? ....riiiiiiight......

Yes, I have had mild freakouts here and there. But none like the one I had yesterday. My cousin and I were emailing back and forth and all of a sudden she asked,

"What colors are you doing her room in?"

Something I have talked about many times. Something I've been planning. But, for some reason those words hit me like a ton of bricks. Her, I'm having a baby, a girl no less. OMG what am I going to do?

So, an update

I suck, yes I know!


An update...

We're Team Vag! Get to see her again next week, to be sure!

Stilllllllll puking daily.

Still losing weight, due to all the puking.

Debating on names.

Is that you...

dear round ligament pain?

Kindly, GTFO.

NOW

I want pizza NOW!

Thank the Lord I had a hot pocket in the freezer.

Let the guessing begin!

Here we are at 16 weeks today. Our first gender determination U/S is NEXT WEEK -- Friday, Nov 6th. So, I set up a poll on the side for you to enter your guesses!!!

P.S. We're thinking girl.

14 Weeks!

*Sidenote: It's quite difficult to take a side portrait of yourself.

How far along? 14 Weeks!!!

Total weight gain/loss: -8 lbs still I guess

Maternity clothes? yes

Sleep: getting better

Best moment this week: looking at my belly growth. There's a baby in there!

Movement: Just gas

Gender: Still thinking girl.

Labor Signs: No!

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I miss: Being energetic and feeling well.

What I am looking forward to: Looking at baby stuff when I feel better.

Weekly Wisdom: We're having a baby!!!!

Milestones: being in 2nd tri!

Your adorable little fetus is busy with thumb sucking, toe wiggling, and (not so cute but equally amazing) making urine and breathing amniotic fluid as the liver, kidneys and spleen continue to develop. Lanugo (thin, downy hair) is growing all over the body for warmth.

13 Weeks!

How far along? 13 Weeks!!!
Total weight gain/loss: -8 lbs
Maternity clothes? yes, with this fat/bloat/bump...
Sleep: here and there
Best moment this week: Having moments where I have a break from being sick, however few and far between they may be!
Movement: Just gas
Gender: Leaning towards a girl.
Labor Signs: No!
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: Being energetic.
What I am looking forward to: Looking at baby stuff.
Weekly Wisdom: It's all for a greater good.
Milestones: Hitting 2nd tri this week!!!

Your fetus is forming teeth and vocal cords... savor this, their non-functional phase. Baby is approaching normal proportions, with a head now only one third the size of the body. Intestines are in the process of moving from the umbilical cord to baby's tummy.

Dear membranes in my nose,

If you'd kindly thicken up, I'd greatly appreciate it. This bloody nose every other day is getting old. I got pg so I wouldn't have to have a period for 9 months, duh. I don't need to have one on my face coming out of my nasal cavity thank.ya.very.much.

Should there be a murder at my office one day, I'm sure I'll be a prime suspect with the amount of blood on the bathroom floor. nft.

Tomorrow's the BIG DAY!

We get to see bebe tiger tomorrow! Woot woot!

Send good thoughts that all is well!

Puking while driving on the interstate where there's no shoulder is not very easy. Just FYI.

ah, pregnancy firsts

I've been blessed with this child and I pray everyday that everything will be OK. I have also been blessed with glorious reminders that (s)he is doing well...ah symptoms! It's been a crazy experience of firsts.

A couple weeks ago, for like a week an a half I had this pressure in my throat and come to frickin find out it was heartburn. What a revelation! I've never experienced hb before. As unpleasant as it was, it was nice to figure out what the discomfort causing extra nausea was!

This brings me to yesterday, when I hit 8 weeks -- so did my bowels to a brick wall. Full on slow motion going on in there. In my 25 years and millions of pounds of cheese consumed, I have never experience the joy that is constipation. Yet, this child is quick to tighten up on my system. Eh, less bathroom trips I guess!

Love you lil tiger and whatever pain and torture you will find humorous to throw my way. I may bitch, but inside I really will gladly take it as a reminder of you. But sshhh, don't tell daddy. Mommy likes his concern and catering right now.

7 Weeks!

How far along? 7 weeks, OK and a couple days...shoot me!

Total weight gain/loss: 0

Maternity clothes? Well, I invested in a new bra (happens to be a nursing one) and a bella band.
Sleep: Still getting it until I have to pee at about 4 am.
Best moment this week: Realizing that I have heartburn because the meds I took have made such a difference!
Movement: Does gas count?
Gender: DH seems to think boy.
Labor Signs: Hellz no, thank goodness!
Belly Button in or out? Innie.
What I miss: Hot baths, yes again. I love me some steaming baths!
What I am looking forward to: 1st appt tomorrow and telling the last of our family after that!
Weekly Wisdom: Even though you may feel like utter crap at times, or all the time; Try to remember it's all for a wonderful and special miracle!
Milestones: Making it to 7 weeks. 10 weeks is my next goal!

Baby's now the size of a blueberry! Baby's brain -- both hemispheres! -- is growing fast, generating about one hundred new cells every minute. Arms and legs are emerging as joints start to form, and a permanent set of kidneys (baby's third!) is now in place.

How about: Mother's Quote of the Day

My mom, the sweetheart she is, is a very excited Nana-to-be. She's awfully energetic as far as planning for her first grandchild is concerned. However, she's quite the worry-wart as well. I'd like to share her "wisdom" each day. Each day, you say? Yes, my mother provides classic lines everyday via 10 billion phone calls, e-mails and her newest, texts that I think are simply too much! I'm being quite presumptuous thinking I may provide liners from her each day. I'm sure if won't be hard. If I miss a day or 2, it's probably not from the lack of rollers, it's because I'm lazy. To kick off this giggle of a good time, I give you 2, TWO!

Mom: "I saw at walmart a thing in the baby section something that you put on your belly and you can email the sounds of the beating, etc. Not sure how it works but I may get it in a couple of weeks for you. That would be neat if it worked."

Loving daughter: "I can record gas too? That'd be neat. I'll be sure to send that to you!"

and

Mom: "You need to be careful with flu season coming up."

My response: "I have my mask already on. Or I can stay home this whole pregnancy and you can supplement our income..."

Maybe it's just me, but I find her absolutely hysterical. Seriously, I'm not even 6 weeks yet. Love her though. Doesn't mean I can't joke about the brilliance.

5 Weeks!

[Bloat pic coming later]

How far along? 5 weeks!
Total weight gain/loss: -1 lb
Maternity clothes? Nope, but I'm sure I'll be needing a Bella Band soon enough.
Sleep: Liking going to bed early but not crashing and burning yet.
Best moment this week: BFP, of course...well that was last week, I guess!
Movement: Nope, just twinges from the wittle appleseed. Just the body getting used to things.
Gender: Have my moments of thinking both, so who knows?
Labor Signs: NOPE!
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: HOT baths, but that's OK!
What I am looking forward to: Just this pregnancy and our little tiger arriving in April!
Weekly Wisdom: Today I am pregnant and I love my baby.
Milestones: Making it over a week of being pregnant! Woot!


Baby's now the size of an appleseed! Your embryo, which doesn't look like much more than a tadpole right now, is actually starting to form major organs (heart, kidney, liver, stomach) and systems (nervous, circulatory, digestive). Baby's presence in your uterus triggers production of HCG (the hormone detected by pregnancy tests), which triggers the production of other hormones like estrogen and progesterone, which triggers all those great symptoms you've probably been noticing!

Telling mom...

Friday night, Mr. Pink and I decide to tell mom (and stepdad) about our pregnancy. We took them out to eat. I wrapped her a present...



And she about flipped she was so freakin' excited!


It was so nice to tell her. She's been asking me how I'm feeling everyday and checking on me. She even sent me an e-mail yesterday about some cute diaper bags she found. This will be a long 8 more months! But that's OK. That's what I get for being the only child! :)

Really? A "craving" already? Seriously?

I woke up this morning with DH still sleeping. I decide to stay in bed watching TV. Then about 10 a.m. I suddenly want Chili's chips. No salsa, just chips. I have never wanted something so urgently before. Luckily mom was heading back from church and brought me some. I had to wait until about noon, but they still tasted delish and hit the spot.

Who needs an alarm clock...?

Not Mr. Pink that's for sure! I woke him up this morning with my puking. He quite enjoyed it, if I do say so myself!

1st appt schedulded!!!

August 28th...I'll be in my 8th week. I just so happen to be off that day too! Whoo hoo! This is becoming all too real! If I can make it thru this week OK, then after the appt, I'll feel a lot better. I just can't wait. It seems like an eternity from now. How will I ever concentrate on anything else..

Love--hate relationship

As I sit uncomfortably in my chair, feeling like I have to puke; Or attempt to lie down, still feeling the urge--my nausea is graced with a smile. 'Tis a bittersweet relationship, my dear morning, err, all day sickness. I've never been happier kneeling over a porcelin John. Because you know, Crown Royal and Diet Coke doesn't come up as gracefully and the gut you get from it isn't a purdy as a "bump."

So, I haz a present

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Picture sucks arse...way darker in person. Still early because I couldn't help but test at 11 dpo. I just felt it and had some symptoms too! But we shall see! PLEASE BE A STICKY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello there, stranger

I'm back from the hell world of work....done with my busy time....my head's above water. I promise to post more often. We have some exciting things coming up in life so hopefully I won't bore you to death.

Luvs.

I'm here...alive

Back from vacay.

DH is still unemployed although he takes a class Aug 1st and must pass a test after to be able to officially start working and earning money. If it works out like it should, it will be a huge financial increase for us, which is great considering we've been taking some savings money from his 6 wks out of work so far.

Going on cycle 6 now.

Works a bitch. Crazy busy.

I'll try to get back into posting. I steer clear of a lot of things these days because I'm just.feeling.down.

Must prepare

We leave for Michigan next Sunday morning for the week. I must figure out what all we're doing so I know what to pack. I just know I'm going to have to buy things so I hope I can squeeze out a litlle shopping money without feeling guilty.

Side note: DH did the last of the official crap for unemployment today. Looks like we'll get his first "paycheck" Wednesday. Totally sucks that it's at least 20% of his weekly pay, but I guess it's something. Still no jobs in the field so he's meeting with BIL's friend who has a bail bonds biz in our town. Just what I wanted him to do. ::eye roll::

Anniversary gifts

I forgot to share what our anniversary gifts were. DH and I are sticking with the traditional gift thing. Well, I am and he's not protesting so that's the same as "we," right?

So I got him a gift certificate to get a new tat. He got me one for a massage...he knows me so well :)

Can't wait to spend mine!

Our Future Home

Dh and I did the Parade of Homes this weekend. We got some really great ideas for when we build and surprisingly not too many looks as we wondered into the $929,000 house that's 3 times the place we live in now. Perhaps we pull off the young, rich heir look, no?

I think we even found the builder we'll use. He's local. We loved 2 of the houses we saw this weekend...enough to even go back there on Sunday. His prices are right. Small business. Offers a discount because we're local to him. So all gravy, right?

We reviewed all our notes and drew up this floorplan only to realize that we forgot to add in our office. I'm kinda pissed because I love the way it is now. Granted it's not totally to scale. I'm not an architect so things could be wrong already...but in my head it's symetrical! lolz.

Things can come and go so fast

Don't mind me if I just sulk for a minute here. I'm having a bad evening.

I cannot believe last week, this day, we got the best news of our life. I took aim at my $.99 pee cup and waited and waited and waited. Pretended to cook dinner without an obvious look of wonder and hope that in 3 minutes, maybe, just maybe we'd be pg. I go to check the results assuming it was a negative only to see the most wonderful word uttered by a $15 stick that you treat so poorly to pee on but that holds your future so excitingly, "PREGNANT!" I fluttered about the house to grab another stick. Thank God I used the cup and didn't attempt 10 seconds mid-stream. Ah, should I waste another digi? Wait, I have a generic brand. We'll see what it says. There's a cross. OMG, OMG!!! Stirring dinner. Oh yeah, you can use an OPK to test too. A second pink line on it. WE'RE PREGNANT!!!

I grab DH's gift of an LSU onesie and the closest gift bag I could find...a Christmas one, how lovely! I give him the bag saying it's an early anniversary gift. After some blank stares of trying to figure out what a stick that says "PREGNANT" on it actually means, he grabs me, kisses me and it's the most wonderful evening ever.

Just 2 days later I begin to feel worrisome. Cramping, but that's normal. Pg symptoms can = PMS symptoms. Some spotting.....I freak but yes, brown is ok....now pink....try to stay calm. I cannot be going crazy already. I cannot believe I stayed at work that Friday. I was a wreck all day. My Dr called me back to schedule my first appt. After speaking with the nurse and telling her what's going on, I get slightly reassured it could be normal.

That night and Saturday was horrible. Saturday began the worst day of my life, so far. How can something I was given just 3 days ago, be already taken from me? That's not fair. Brown and pink turned to red. Uncomfortable cramps led to the worst I've ever had. It was not a good day. I did not want to do anything....Sunday either. I spent most of the weekend in bed.

I guess I had that feeling. A feeling I tried to ignore because I was pregnant, actually pregnant! I was going to have a child, be a mother. It CANNOT be taken from me already. But that Saturday I figured out it could and it was. My fears of a chemical pregnancy was a reality.

So I look back to an exact week ago and think man, things can come and go so fast. I'm sitting here in a whirlwind still and my only hope is looking forward to trying again and our future. One day we will get pregnant again. One day. But yet it also scares me. What if this happens again?

Oh how sweet it is

Since Sunday was our first anniversary, DH and I got to enjoy our top layer of cake. Since I dislike cake--of course our top (and bottom layer) were cheesecake instead! My dad wrapped up our top layer in aluminum foil the night of our wedding, so it didn't save all nice and pretty. The majority of the buttercream icing was left on the foil, but oh emm gee did it taste good! As of today we still have some left that I stack on every night!

13. Replace chandelier in kitchen over dining table--CHECK

DH finally got around to putting up our new light fixture for over the dining table. Nothing fancy. I just hated the 1970s version of what we had before.

Might be a PW this week since I'm distracting myself and trying to get the damn peestick off the front page. Hmph.

Well, my fears were correct

Yesterday I started my period so I guess it was a chemical pregnancy. I'll call my doctor to cancel my appointment for later this month and see if there's anything I need to do.

Worst day of my life, right there. Totally heartbreaking.

::sigh::

I promise to never test early again. I could not put myself thru this again. I felt like the whole time I was waiting for the other shoe to drop so I guess deep down I sensed it. Still blows.

Guess I'll be having a few glasses of wine at our First Anniversary dinner tonight. Yay me. ::rolls eyes::

worried

I should have waited until today to test. I know I should have. I'm at work debating whether or not to go get a peestick or just call the Dr. I have some slight barely pink spotting today that has me terrified this is a C/P. I usually have this the day or so before my period and tomorrow would be CD 1.

Why does this have to be so damn frightening?

1. Get pregnant--CHECK

Thanks to MrsBreaux2008 for pointing out that I have completed my first of my 101 Things. Although, it wasn't something I could totally control, it's nice to mark something off my list and ABSOLUTELYFREAKINGWONDERFUL to be pg. Dear Tiger Bebe, we cannot wait until you arrive! Smooches.

::look to previous post for the pic::

Guesssss Whatttt?????

We are so KTFU!!!



I'm sorry it's not the best pic in the world! BFP @ 12 dpo. We're SO FRICKIN' EXCITED!!!! I feel so blessed and cannot WAIT to be a mother. I pray that it's a sticky baby. We already love you so much!

I'll post more tomorrow. I just wanted to share with everyone this evening. Thanks for all the well wishes on TTC and me stressing out. I really appreciate everyone's support!

Love!

I wish it was Friday already. All kinds of funky going on. May break and test tomorrow at 12 dpo. I have no self control. Bah!

101 Things in 1001 Days

So far, I've seen 3 people start this mission for themselves. Each time, I read their list and I feel so lazy and there's so many things that have been on my "To Do" list for forever. So, I'm kicking myself in the rear and here goes my list!

Instead of starting a new blog (I can't handle another) I'm just posting my list here and I'll post updates within this blog as well, since this blog is about my life.

The Mission
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days is a decent period of time, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Start Date: June 1, 2009
End Date: February 27, 2012

Incomplete Tasks
Complete Tasks
Tasks in Progress

My List
1. Get (and stay) pregnant!!!
2. Take pictures of each task completed (0/101)
3. Post on my blog everyday for a month (0/30)
4. Take a hobby course at LSU
5. Learn a language using Rosetta Stone

Home is where the heart is
6. Get roof fixed
7. Organize store room
8. Clear out garden
9. Plant flowers in garden
10. Tile the master bathroom
11. Put down new carpet throughout house
12. Organize and inventory side biz stuff
13. Replace chandelier in kitchen over dining table
14. Replace all the doors in our house
15. Put up a ceiling fan in master bedroom
16. Get a recycling bin
17. Paint kitchen countertops
18. Purchase artwork for the house
19. Plant 3 Magnolia trees in the back lot where house will be
20. Find house plans that I LOVE
21. Build house

That paper, paper
22. Put $5 into savings for each completed item (0/101)
23. Put $200 into retirement savings acct every month (0/12)
24. Put $200 into college savings acct every month (0/12)
25. Put $200 into baby fund savings acct every month (0/12)
26. Pay off ring
27. Pay off medical bill
28. Pay back Dad
29. Buy an SUV
30. Create a formal college savings account for future spawn
31. Start a formal IRA or 401k for myself
32. Count coins and bring to bank
33. Enact the Total Money Makeover plan

Paying it forward
34. Clean out closet to give more clothes to charity
35. Donate to 5 organizations (3/5)
36. Adopt a child for Christmas
37. Adopt a family for Christmas
38. Volunteer for something
39. Send a surprise gift to someone (0/5)
40. Donate $5 for each item not marked off to a charity
41. Participate in the Alzheimer’s Walk to Remember

I do’s
42. Print out all our wedding pictures and give away to family (sadly I have yet to do this!)
43. Design and print out all wedding albums (0/5)
44. Sell all wedding stuff that’s sitting around the house
45. Frame wedding pictures for the house

My lobster
46. Go with DH to concerts (0/5)
47. Date night with DH every month (0/31)
48. Take couples dance lessons

Social butterfly
49. Become friends with 2 couples
50. Go out to dinner with new couple friends (0/5)
51. Throw a party (0/5)
52. Invite friends over to dinner (0/5)
53. Send an e-mail/card to a friend or family member (0/5)

It’s all relative
54. Write letters for spawn
55. Keep regular family videos
56. Take pictures regularly
57. Learn to sew
58. Purchase an SLR camera
59. Learn how to use the camera for photojournalistic photos
60. Create Living Wills
61. Visit my grandmother at the nursing home once a week for 3 months (0/12)
62. Collect all friends’ and family members’ birthdays
63. Call dad once a week (0/146)
64. Visit or have dinner with dad once a month (0/31)
65. Plan Mom’s surprise 50th birthday party
66. Dates with Mom once every other week (0/146)

Traveling the world
67. Renew passport with name change
68. Go on a cruise
69. Plan our return to Couples Swept Away in Jamaica
70. Go to the beach
71. Plan a trip for Mom and I
72. Stay at a Bed & Breakfast

Staying’ fit
73. Get a massage
74. Lose 20 lbs
75. Lose 30 lbs
76. Lose 40 lbs
77. Lose 50 lbs
78. Lose more weight
79. Get DH Lasik treatment
80. Go to the dentist
81. Get wrist checked out by Dr
82. Go see a chiropractor
83. Go to the gym 20 times in a month (0/20)
84. Take a daily vitamin
85. Work out in the morning for a week (0/7)

Grub
86. Cook a completely homemade dinner once a month (0/31)
87. Take cooking lessons (0/3)
88. No soft drinks for a week
89. No pizza for a month
90. No fast food for a week
91. Try new recipes (0/30)
92. Try new restaurants (0/10)
93. Go back on vegetarian diet for a week

Being all pro
94. Spend an entire day at work only doing work stuff
95. Get my CMP designation
96. Get my CISR designation
97. Quit my job and work solely on my side biz
98. Join ABC
99. Become a Professional Consultant
100. Present at shows (0/3)
101. Sell crafts at October Festival (1/2)

Let's see how this goes...

And we have sore boobs!

Woot, woot!

And I've got a few other things going on. Keep those symptoms coming.

Unless my body and that whore of a bitch AF are teasing me and in that case, suck it!

8 dpo...

Fuckityfuckfuckfuck

DH just got laid off.

EFFFF me!

Fortunately, my step-dad is one of his bosses so he told hm to call their main office Monday b/c there's other companies that have work where they'll probably place him and 4 other people (of the 16 they laid off today). Step-dad said they're hiring him back as soon as stuff opens up.

Let's hope there is an alternative company and that it's local and pays same or more than he's getting now! Wishful thinking, this I know.

WTF.

The evil wait

...can kiss my ass!

Since I took B6 this go-round, this cycle should end next Friday. But I'm 7 DPO now, so I'll probably test sooner just because I can barely frickin' stand it now! Please grant me the strength to wait until Monday to POAS so I won't waste a whole dolla dolla before at least 10 DPO.

Buttfuckingsomeofabitch....I have no patience.

It would have been nice to say 'yes.'

I just got asked if I was having a baby. Actually, the convo went...

Brave Cleaning Guy: "You're about to have a baby, huh?"

Me with red dagger eyes: "Huh. Nope, just fat. But thanks!"

He just walked away.

I admit this shirt is not all that flattering! Guess the 30 day shred isn't helping my lower gut much. Damn bloat. Is it bloat if it stays there all the time? lolz. Thanks Mr. Cleaning Guy! Made.my.day.

::goes back to starving self::

Totally forgot to mention...

WE'RE GOING ON A VACAY!!!

Whoo hoo!

The ILs have a condo in Michigan that they leave here to spend the summer every year. They offered to pay all our expenses for the week. We plan to go to a large music festival that they have there. They also bought a boat and a jetski in prep for our visit. Yes, you heard me correctly. THEY FREAKING BOUGHT A BOAT AND A JETSKI SINCE WE'RE GOING TO COME. They go every year and are just now buying these. I kinda feel bad, but I enjoy a free ride...it's not like we asked. They begged.

A friend of theirs lives nearby and he offered to help us with designing our house. ::hypervenilates:: Free home design. Must.prepare.all.ideas.NOW!!!

So, another month of the 30 day shred or I will be looking like overstuffed sausage in my tankini. Joy.

::please let me be pg to use as an excuse::

Just joking....but not really!

Summertime!

So that means it's time for a haircut.

Before...

After...I got hi and lo lights too.



I'm already dreading the bangs.

Making the day better

From DH this morning...

The thermometer is on vacay

I'm on CD 7. Period has been over for the past 2 days. I haven't touched my thermometer this cycle yet. I think I don't want to. We're considering the sex.all.the.time route, but I'm scared. I feel like I have to give it all we've got. I think I'll still use OPKs, so with that and sex everyday, is there really any need to temp? ::sigh:: I don't know.

Thoughts?

Negative

BF one yesterday @ 9 DPO. Still early I guess. I'll test tomorrow again @ 11 DPO.

Blech.

Walking FAIL

This damn flu has gotten me all throwed off. Oh yeah, I'm sick btw. It has stopped my Shred progress. Booo. My body hurts everywhere b/c of the damn flu.

Anyway, I have no balance.

Me walking down the stairs=

Devil in workout clothes

Damn Jillian Michaels!

I started the 30 Day Shred today. It wasn't so bad. Had 2 issues besides being incredibly tired. You do pushups and my wrist has always not worked well for that. I tried them the easy way on your knees, but it's still too much pressure on my left wrist. Then I was doing something and I pulled a muscle in my lower leg near my ankle. It was freaking burning the rest of the time so I couldn't put very much energy into the rest. Longest 20 minutes of my life!

Feeling Down

Feeling down these days. I hate my job. It's a good one, but I'm so burned out. I can't move up. I want to do my side business full time. I'm hoping to next year anyway, but I wanted to wait to get back from maternity leave for a month or so before I decided to "stay home with child." Or at least that will be my excuse!

But to do so, I actually have to GET pg! Duh! It's O time, and we've been taking care of things so I REALLY hope this is the right cycle. Please?

I've never been so pissed!

This hotel sales rep I'm using thru work is trying to screw with me. She keeps going back on her word. Screwing shit up. Revising the unsigned contract--because she hasn't given it to me to actually sign. Yet, I had to send a out an invitation to the event since it's NEXT WEEK and then she blindsides me with a $2000 price increase! WTF. My head is killing me now. She just got an earful and is now talking to her boss about bringing down the cost to where they were YESTERDAY. Ugh!

Mucinex

sucks donkey balls. Man, those pills are HUGE and they taste gross. I thought PNVs were the biggest pills around. WRONG!

Happy Birthday

to me!

Great.

::rolls eyes::

Busy bee

We have a crawfish boil for work tonight = free food and booze. Then going out for my cousin's birthday.

Tomorrow is Good Friday and I have off. But I need to get our taxes done and have a million things for my side biz that I want to get done. And all of us grandkids are taking my grandma out for lunch.

Saturday we're going to dinner with friends for my birthday and maybe out afterwards. But it also means I have to do the "rounds" with each parent, yada yada. And bring the dogs to the vet.

Sunday is Easter with 2 Easter celebrations to go to. I'm going to be SO TIRED on Monday

CD 1

Woot! Woot! I'm excited. I knew the past cycle was a bust (yet again) because of 'issues' so I was anxious to get onto April. This cycle was back down to my usual 29 day cycle. Anyway, please, PLEASE let us actually get a shot this month. No stupid 'out of town during O time' or anything else to get in our way of trying. It'd be nice to REALLY try for a cycle...you know, getting a fighting chance, not just going through the days of the cycle.

Ahh, I'm going back to watching 'Baby Mama.'

Easter

I'm so excited for this Easter. We haven't been doing BIG family events much for holidays the past couple of years. But, my aunt called earlier this week to say they're having an Easter egg hunt next Sunday for all the great grandkids (there's 6 now) and then we'll all have dinner there too.

So I, of course, ran to te nearest Hobby Lobby to get something for the kids. I live vicariously thru my cousins. Anyway, I found a bunch of Easter toys (all half off, I might add) and these little take-out boxes. I'm putting the toys in these since I know they'll all have baskets already. I just finished writing their names on them.

I'll post the finished pics once I get everything in them.

i want

Pretty please?


Why do things have to be so expensive?

Cleaning house

We still don't know where DH will be stationed. This week will start his "wait" or as I like to call it, his unemployment status. But, a guy he worked with out of state got stationed near our house and he lives about 5 hours away so we offered him to stay here during the week. So not only do I get my husb back, but also a roommate. This will work wonders for my only-child self!

Hopefully, DH will get stationed at the same place as he is so they can ride together and save on gas. So, I'm cleaning the house, trying to declutter the guest room. But, I wanted to be lazy today :( Pooper.

awesome

DH works out of state during the week. Well, a couple weeks ago they said the plant didn't need his contracting company anymore (because they are trying to cut expenses) so he was moving back, waiting for his company to relocate him. Our state was the most likely possibility. So he moves back last night all set to go to the office today to see where he's been relocated to. All the open positions require a special pass in which he applied for last week. It's a government-issued card, so guess how long that's going to take? Surprisingly only 2-4 weeks, which means we're shit outta luck for about 2 weeks. Joy. I'm so frickin glad we've been saving up lots of money the past couple of months. I hope we don't use up too much. I just hope they can place him as soon as he gets his card. Effin B.S.

Well that's not going to do it

TTC issues this month so this cycle's a bust. It was a perfect opportunity but there were issues. I am absolutely crushed as I was so excited about this cycle. Here's to April, I guess.

::le sigh::

Eeek!!!

Sooooooo, DH comes home today for the weekend and guess what Sunday is?...O day baby! Yeh, so he leaves on Sunday to go back to work, but still--it's a close shot. Last month we ended up only being able to try like 4 days before O because of his schedule. So this month we'll have a better timing issue. Now this is if I O according to last cycle (which was the latest in cycle I O'd since June). So there's even a shot that I O earlier which will be even better! Anyway, pardon my excitement or don't read the blog, KWIM!

Wish us luck! The bed shaking will begin this evening...

Why TTC and alcohol don't mix...

I went to a conference for work in New Orleans at the end of last week. I was leaving on Saturday so on Friday night we decided to hit up Bourbon Street.

Well, I end up talking to this company rep from one of our members. He's totally sweet. But what do we talk about for an hour? Charting and pg. Yep, that's right. I'm a barrel of fun, I guess! He mentioned something about it and I was like OMG I totally do that too. The Crown Royal blurs my exact recollection of how it all started. It was really funny though. He and his wife have been trying for 6 months so we talked about how naive people are sometimes about getting pg. We scared off a few people that tried to ease in our convo. lolz!

Good times.

Where the action happens...

As in food action....you dirty mids, you!

We bought a new dining set for Christmas, but it came in scratched. I got aggravated at the company so didn't reorder another one. Then I couldn't find something else relatively inexpensive that I liked. Found this set about 2 weeks ago. We picked it up and DH put it together Saturday.

I lurve it. We had a bulky 6 seater, but I wanted something smaller. We don't have a dining room, but still never really use the table anyway! lol.

Now I need to get a new centerpiece for the table.

Annnndddd......CD1

On to Cycle #2.

No. 1 was half-ass anyway. 3 days worth of sex? Puh-lease!

Just glad to have an answer.

CD 32...

Still no period. Mild cramping. Doesn't feel exactly like period cramps though. Hmph. The longest cycle in a year of charting has been 29 days. Of course I get mega-cycle when actually TTCing. If cycle 2 is on its way, I wish it'd hurry up and get here already. You're wasting my limited TTC time, ya hear?

14 dpo is still early for BFP so hoping....BFNs since pd was due.

I wish I hadn't missed earlier this week of temping. It'd probably show me what's going on. ::slaps forehead::

@%$#

Edit: Here's my chart, although it's not much help since I haven't temp'd this week. Stupid work trip and concert. lolz.

::sigh::

I'm so depressed right now. It's a multitude of things. Today is DH's birthday and he ended up coming home early from their turnaround so it's the first time I've seen him since Valentine's Day. He got the flu so they said he would be off until Monday so they just sent him home. I'm so excited he's here. Of course we fought about something stupid though so that bummed me out too. I'm stressed at work. Nothing's going right. I think it's on to the next cycle--which I'm taking really hard--but it's only our first cycle trying and we didn't even get a good shot at it this cycle. People have been trying for years, yet I'm so upset about everything that I'm crying as I type this. My headaches have been really bad lately. I've been missing DH a lot. But he's home so I should feel better now. This is me just rambling. I actually feel somewhat better now :)

The wait sucks

I know we were probably way early trying this month, but since the DH is OOT for the month--that was our only time for a visit. My temps look good, but I think they are just playing mindtricks with me. No hope for this cycle based on when I O'd, but alas I must wait until March 2nd to test if I haven't started the next cycle by then. Oh, the wait. BLOWS!

Laissez les bon temps rouler!

I'm so ready for Mardi Gras! I'm going to the Spanish Town parade tomorrow, with some friends since DH is still OOT for work. He will be there in spirit though...

This was from the last parade we went to I guess a couple years ago. He's klassy, huh? Fortunately, he came to his senses about facial hair.

And this year's theme for the parade?....

Isn't it FANTASTIC!!!

Guess what I'm eating?

PINEAPPLE

Because it's worth the shot, right?

Plus, I lurve fruit and trying to eat healthier anyway. Makes for a great snack. Nom nom nom.

Curbing the fever...

I'm so going to the hospital today--one of my best friends from school's little sis just had her baby this morning! She went in at 1am to be induced and popped out baby Adalyn at 8:38am.

I was so close to the whole family from 3rd grade until we graduated HS. Sadly, we went our separate ways in college, but now we've started getting to know each other again. Her and her DH were the ones we went to dinner with a few weeks ago that I posted about. Anyway, her lil sis was always like my sister, since I'm an only child, so I'm so excited for her!

Maybe I can steal a pic to post later!

Happy Valentine's Day

Still out of town visiting DH during the O time and conveniently V Day. Waiting for him to get back to the hotel from work today, bored out of my everloving mind, in the skimpies for a SURPRISE attack....which will not be so spontaneous since he will come in and then need to shower since he reeks after work. Picked up some rose petals to add a lil spice. I'm a dork! It's very tempting to open my gift since it's in 2 bags sitting right in front of me for the past couple of days. Can you tell what it is? I can't. I just got him some candy and a couple of DVDs. We're trying to save moola for future spawn. :) Anyway, don't be surprised if I write yet another blog today since I'm so incredibly bored. Leaving here tomorrow.

So, TTCing...

With a few nights under our belt.....It's very strange to be going your whole sexually-active life of condoms, BCP and pull 'n pray to actually trying to get pg. Makes for an odd realization mid-romp.

Nervous

I'm so nervous today.

I'm nervous that this week we'll actually be TTCing. I mean, it's actually come to fruition. We've waited 2 years to even try.

I'm nervous because we only have a window until July to conceive this year because of work. There's a great possibility that it won't happen in the 6 months. My patience may not make it another year!

I'm nervous that I haven't spent enough time charting, etc to be as best prepared for the long TTC haul.

I'm nervous that this year we could be parents.

My excitement is masked by my anxiety. Trust me--there's plenty of excitement there! But, I'm totally not looking forward to the 2ww. And yet, there I go again babbling about TTC when we haven't even completed the first cycle yet. This should be fun.

Perhaps this should be a good time to mention I am OCD about many areas in my life! Joy!

My Turn Day

Stop talking. Start doing.

A syndicated radio show that I listen to has started this campaign on volunteerism. February 10th they are calling for everyone to just announce what they are doing by your media sources (MySpace, Facebook, blog, etc). It can be big or small, just do something...an hour's worth.

Here's some more details...
http://myturnday.com/home/

Need help with a volunteer move? Try this site: http://www.volunteermatch.org/.

I'm trying to figure out what I'm doing! You'll hear it on the 10th!

CD1

This means we're officially TTC this cycle!

Here we go......

Long and random

Yesterday was an awesome day on many levels.

I finally got to use a gift certificate for a massage that my mom bought for me for Christmas 2007. I assumed it was a half hour one and was pleasantly surprised when the masseuse started rubbing on my legs. Although, I have not shaved in a couple weeks probably since it's been so cold. So she was in for a little treat! And my butt got some love. Instead of the normal poking/pushing, it got full-palm groping. Sweet!

But this extra half hour made us late for dinner with my longtime childhood friend who is 15 wks pg and her husband. They got married 2 weeks before us so we caught up on the times and shared wedding pics. I had many glances from DH when she'd do something in reference to her pregnancy or talk about something pg-related. I can tell he's really anxious and ready to get to trying!

After that we met up with DH's crazy ass sister and her crazy ass friend to go out. They came in from OOT because both of their husbands are on a bachelor party in Vegas. Did I mention they're crazy? Well, yeah the night was wild and we got some good pics! They're sending them to me later. We went barhopping with them and my cousins and their friends. Much fun! DH and I celebrated silently what MAY be my last night out, drinking. ::fingers crossed:: He leaves for his work turnaround tomorrow and will be gone until March. I probably will be a bump on a log until he gets home; aside from V Day weekend that I'm going up to visit him. This is also the weekend I'll be ovulating so we'll have good timing on that one, hopefully. I drank too much. Stunk outrageously when I woke up this morning. But fortunately I'm not hungover!

So yeah, that was yesterday.

Today, we're getting a new hot water heater since ours is crap and is now soaking my many pairs of shoes in our closet. Don't ask why someone would put a water heater in the closet. I'm just glad to have regularly scheduled hot water and dry shoes. Little joys in life I tell ya.

Well, this is getting to be a novel...

My mom, our sitter apparentally

So my mom called me last Wednesday to tell me she's quitting her job on Thursday. She took off Friday anyway to help with the garage sale (see previous post). She said she was tired of the constant mental harassment from her boss and yada yada yada. She's been working there for 17 years, ever since my parents got divorced.

She ends the conversation with "So I'm taking a while off, if I go back to working at all. I'm not sure if I want to work, part-time or full-time. And now would be a great time to have a baby."

While I don't totally disagree with her point on her being out of work means she could watch the future spawn, but she's out of work NOW. Even if we were to get PG like yesterday it'd still be 9 months from now. Ah, silly moms. I'll be sure to tell the ute to speed up the process because future spawn's grandmother is out of work to watch le bebe.

Logic at its finest.

Garage sale SCORE!!!

We had a garage sale at my cousin's house Friday and Saturday. It was 4 families. We totalled almost $2,000! DH and I collected about $330. I'm so excited! All that for crap that was laying around the house, not getting used. We're putting it in our baby fund!

We have + OPK!!!

Since we'll start TTC next month I decided to try and confirm O this cycle. Well here at CD 16, I got a + OPK and the ovulation pains to prove it! Woot woot! Yes, I admit I'm an OPK virgin. At least it's preparing me for POAS. Oooohhhh the addiction to come...

My sleeping bebe

Isn't he the cutest?

Stocking up!

In preparation for all the baby-making that will take place next month, I just ordered some HPTs and OPKs from www.early-pregnancy-tests.com. I'm *hoping* we won't have to use as many as I bought, but you know how that goes! Also, the past couple of months I've noticed my CM wasn't as abundant as it used to be so I went ahead and ordered some PreSeed so that should be fun! lolz.

Anyway, getting excited.

I ovulated this weekend. DH tried to persuade me into "trying" this month. He almost won, but I'm trying to do the responsible thing. He wanted to leave it up to chance but just in case we do get pg on the first cycle, I want to start next month. If we did get pg this cycle my due date would be the week of my BFF's wedding and I'm the MOH. I don't want to risk not being there for her or missing her big day. So February it is!

Getting in shape

So I guess I better get off my ass and try to lose a few pounds. I've been pretty busy so it's hard to get to the gym. The Wii and Wii Fit only do so much. So I think I'm going to start Weight Watchers again, but on my own. Last time I did it online and I think I can do that on my own and not spend the $15/mo.

So I figured out my points allowance. Bookmarked a calculator. We're good to go!

Yay, FUN! ::eyeroll::


You must begin to think of yourself as becoming the person you want to be. --David Viscott

Getting Organized!

So we're starting the year off by getting organized. The house is in such disarray from the holidays, the wedding and everything!

First off: the guest bedroom

Closet is first! We had a cluster eff of a guest bedroom closet where we store some off-season clothes and misc crap. We got one of the Rubbermaid Configurations system (I asked for it for Christmas!). There's a bottom shelf that's adjustable. Shoe bag hanger thing is on door for my extra shoes, because I have a million pair! lol.

We also put a shelf hangy thing in there because I have a bunch of t-shirts that are overflowing our dresser so I'll probably throw some of them in there too. I'm so excited. We still have like 5 big things to work on for organizing the house. I guess it's an early Spring Cleaning!

Last TTA Cycle!

Today I sit here cramping, miserable, yet so excited! This is our last cycle TTA, until July should we not get pregnant before then. It's very exciting and scary thinking that soon we may become pg. So, I guess I'm looking forward to this week and month being over so that we can officially kick off our TTC journey. It'll most certainly be a new experience TTC! Hopefully I can shed a few more pounds this and next month just to feel better.

Looking forward to next month...